After My Appointment For My Psychological Evaluation

So here are my first videos about the process. These videos were taken just after my psychological evaluation. I did pass according to my doctor. So I'm excited!!!

You can also find these on my Youtube channel!

Update: My Pre-op Physical

2014 Mexico - Birthday Cruise

So today I went to my pre-op physical where my PCP signed off for me to be considered for the surgery. Well, I knew he would. My blood pressure was GREAT. No risk of having high blood pressure, no diabetes or any other problems. I have never had a surgery before so this will be a NEW experience for me. I have watched videos and joined a few bariatric surgery support groups on Facebook and will join one that is local to me.

Tomorrow is my psych evaluation and I will hopefully set the appointment to speak to the nutritionist. So wish me luck! I am so ready to get on with this process and take the necessary steps to gain control of my life and feel healthy and free.

I will write a post about why I am having the surgery done but I feel that more will be revealed in my psychological evaluation. I know, just from listening to others stories that I have a minor food addition. I might even have a minor eating disorder. As a younger woman I used to binge eat but now it's more like a love-hate relationship with food. My hardest vices to let go of will be my love for Coca-Cola. God help me with that one.

Until next time,

Linda

Introduction

Hello, I am glad you stopped by to read my blog. I was going to just journal my progress about my weight loss and changing to be a healthier me but instead, I decided to also do a public blog/vlog! So this is my first post to introduce me and who I am.

My name is Linda. Hello!

As of 9/27/17, I weigh 343 lbs with 59% BMI. Yep, I am officially morbidly obese.

The sad thing is all my life I have been obese, well okay there were a few years before 10 that I might have been thin. It all started on a summer vacation to visit my dad (my biological dad that is). It might have been guilt on his part or just no real discipline on my part. The fact of the matter is when I came home from that 2-week stint with him, my own mother walked passed me in the airport. SMH. Needless to say, that was a bit hurtful. I had to call out to her and even then it took her a minute to recognize me.

Even now when she recalls that day, she calls me a rollie pollie. Not the most flattering thing to be called. So it begins my struggle with weight. Now there were other things in my life like sexual molestation, verbal abuse, mental abuse, and domestic violence in my childhood home that would come into play and keep me gaining more weight. But all that is for another blog.  This blog is just about the journey I'm about to take to take my health back and with it my life.

So, here's what I look like from 2008 - 2017.

I have decided to get the bariatric weight loss surgery. I am still trying to decide on if it will be the sleeve or the DS loop. I had my first appointment today. I meet with the NP and she explained the surgery and asked which one I was leaning toward. I explained to her that I thought the sleeve would be a better fit for me and she suggested I get the DS Loop due to my height and weight. BTW I'm 5'4. 

Don't worry my next post will be my official before post and I will take the normal front, back and side view in a very unflattering, show all the business detailed picture :). This is just me introducing myself and what this blog will catalog.

So after hearing her suggest and reading more about the DS Loop, I am now considering which one I will finally decide to do.  I also joined a few FB support groups for the Gastric Sleeve and could not find one that had been started for the DS Loop. So if you know of one let me know. Also if you know of any forum and communities I can join for moral and educational support let me know.

On this blog I will write my thoughts, my plans, my hopes, my failures (If any), but mainly my successes. You will find that I will pour it all out here. There may be a few moments that I don't share due to the personal nature of the moment in question, or it is shared with someone that will not want to have that experience shared on this blog. Otherwise, you will get the whole gambit of information and life experience.

So join me as I take this journey. I almost forgot, I also did my lab work today and tomorrow I will do my physical with my PCP. This is to get them to sign off on the surgery even though He already sent over a referral to my surgeon's office. Then on Friday, I will have my psych evaluation. So the ball is pretty much rolling. I'm excited and nervous. I don't want to make this lifestyle change and fail. In another blog, I will talk about my weight loss attempts in the past. My story is very similar to most overweight people who want to lose weight but it's unique to who I am and my insecurities.

Til next time,

Linda